I’ve had a change of heart

I am writing this blog in our RV because, thankfully, we just got fiber Internet. No more putting my iPhone in the window to try and get signal. (PTL!)

Over the past few months, I have done some soul searching. Do you know what I realized? My business wasn't serving me anymore. Since it wasn't serving me, I know I definitely wasn't serving you. I knew that something needed to change. I was feeling very disconnected and burnt out. I made the decision to close my storefront in July to take some time for myself to figure out what I am passionate about.

I realized that I am a creative at heart. I realized that I am passionate about helping other women tap into their creativity with my scribble sessions. I realized that I love making creative and fun LED signs with my hand-lettering. I realized that I am obsessed with helping entrepreneurs take their businesses to the next level by creating an online presence through web design and branding.

As silly as it sounds, it wasn't simple to figure out what I am passionate about. My soul searching took a lot of time praying, reading, and hiring a business strategist. Over the next few days, I want to walk you through how I was able to find my soul again.

I've always been one to pray, but the depression, anxiety, overwhelm, and burn out that I was feeling was very consuming. I knew that God had called me to take some time off of my full plate and seek Him, so I was obedient and closed my storefront.

Closing my shop was a huge change for me. I am a woman that always wonders “what's next, God?” Because I am wired to think that way, I have had a lot of seasons in my life where I struggled to find contentment. I began doing a lot of praying. I prayed about finding contentment in being a wife and a mom. Being a wife and a mom are two things I have always wanted and prayed for. I am so thankful to be a wife and a mama. I didn't want to take this time “off” for granted, so I prayed for contentment and for God to lead my heart.

At the end of August, my husband and I purchased an RV and moved full-time into it on our ten acres of land. Those first two weeks were hard. I had so much to be thankful for but I was a mess. Going from a 3 bedroom, 2 bath home to a 250 square foot RV was difficult. The claustrophobia was triggering my anxiety. In that short two weeks, I questioned whether we made the right decision. So, I prayed. I had to seek God for contentment again. He led us here. Once again, I had so much to be thankful for but I was ready for the next thing. I started by journaling some affirmations. I am content. I am happy. I am thankful our house is paid for in full. I'm so thankful we are no longer renting. I'll never forget that yellow paper that I wrote those affirmations on that night. I was crying and filled with anxiety in that moment. After my pen left the paper, God filled me with contentment. He gave me a peace that I can't explain to you.

Just like self-care, we have to fill our own cups, so that we aren't pouring from an empty cup. I wanted to share my change of heart and fill you in on some of the God-work that has been taking place.

My change of heart has brought me to a call to action. I need to revamp and re-launch Southern Scribble as a reflection of what God is doing inside my heart. A business that is truly following my creative passions and callings.

Stay tuned for this journey. It's one you don't want to miss.